Okay so last week you let Frank know you have an email account and we can stay in touch that way. That is less confrontational so I appreciate that. Thank you.

I haven't even tried to send you any message; honestly I had no idea what to say. I don't want to fill an email what my fears and regrets for you. Nor do I want to fill it with my normal life doings. I don't believe either of those is fair to you. The flip side of that however is you wouldn't care if it was fair to me or not. But let's not travel that road tonight.

I didn't sleep a bit last night for knowing that tonight, without fail, I was commited to sending contact to you. Well I did. So it is done. Until the next time.

I am trying to love you without fear.