Well you have done it again. No sleep last night, well I did sleep just woke up alot and you were the first thing on my mind. Then I struggled to go back to sleep.

Today I received a call from the cementary that the marker for Jay has been put down. Mom had paid the majority of that and I finished paying. I left everything you and she selected as it was. If you go by there guess you will see it.

You don't know Mom said the wrong person died when Jay passed away. I don't suppose you know she said that on the day you broke into the LOCKED room where Jay kept his gun collection, stole those and did Lord knows what with the cash. Her heart was really broken that day, she wanted to know how you could steal from your dead brother. I wondered the same thing. That day was my birthday and thanks for the memories. My own mother didn't say happy birthday for two years thanks to you and your selfish life style.

Hey I think this blog thing is working the knots in my stomach are gone for this morning. Now if I can only sleep tonight. I am still trying to think what to write in a letter to you. I cannot and will not say what I really think and feel; you would be crushed.