Your letter arrived today and my first thought was to throw it in the trash. Then I thought that might be bad "karma" (as you said once) so maybe I should shred it at the office tomorrow. But maybe I shouldn't have it in the house overnight; no one may be able to sleep.

That's anger talking; and disgust and sorrow, regret. And not wanting to put myself out there again.

I will say this; that is the first time I have heard you say you miss Mom. Thank you. I was thinking maybe you really were as selfish and callous as everyone said.

I am really trying to understand how you got to where you are but I'm having a difficult time. I believe we both had the same parents and I find it impossible to believe they changed that much between raising me and raising you. IMPOSSIBLE! Some where you made a very wrong turn...I pray you can turn the other way.

I apologize for this but here is what I read in your six page letter: You will have no where to go in one year, a friend brought you some money and cigarettes and you can have more but the money can only be cash, you miss Mom and I am the only one you have left in the world.

I am still processing all that and trying to determine how I feel and how I should react. I will most likely write you but you won't get cigarettes or money from me.

By the way, I do love you and I pray for you each day. However I will not step into the role Mom had with you.

• I won't take care of you because there is nothing wrong with you and you are more than capable of taking care of yourself. Do some good.




• I won't support you financially.




• I won't support your drug habit.




• You cannot live with me.




• I will not let you run over me as you did Mom.




• I do love you but I cannot take it.